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Thursday, February 16, 2006 3:38 AM
left this friday, the CH term test. other then this, next week will be a better week i think. because sciences and maths are quite manageable. i'm afraid of the languagess and CH. i seldom pass. sigh. moreover, my mood is not that great this few weeks because of some personal problem. sigh. i could not help but kept sighing. i found that i have become more pro in using illegal things in school. lols. we began to listen to radio even though the teacher is teaching us. haha. but i know what the teacher is talking about. this three days, left two day which are today and tomorrow, my sciences teachers won't be here. to me, it's consider a blessing not because i don't like them, but i think i will use this chance to read up and to revise the things that i do not understand. this few days, i'm aimless. i do not know what to do. and even if i know what i should do, i do not do it. this distraction is damn great to me.
all because of you, i never felt so distracted at all. perhaps what i said is true in my heart. even if i go with you, my care for the other person will not change. this is the confusing part. i do not know. i seriously do not know. the reason why i hug you so tightly yesterday was because i just felt that i will eventually lose you even though you assured me that you will not leave. i cannot find the sense of security. and it was true. you wanted me to stop worrying about you when i could not. YOU WORK HARD FOR THE THINGS YOU WANT. touch my heart as soon as possible. :)
all i want to let you know is that, there are other people who care about you. even if you reject their care and concern, but you cannot stop them from doing so. because they are your friends. true friends will stay with you forever. true friends will not want to see you in this manner. the concern that they give is deep down from the bottom of their heart. the only person who can help is yourself. whether you want to be in this way forever just because of one setback, or you want to stand strong and face the same problem again, but using a different methoud to tackle it. IT IS YOUR DECISION THAT MAKES UP YOUR LIFE. DO NOT REGRET WHAT YOU DO. always remember, even if there's no friends around, i will be around to lend you a listening ear, to lend you my shoulders.
from all this experiences, i realise that people will change their mind suddenly. and you will not know how to solve it. suddenly, your mood will just change. you are at a loss, and no one can help you think of what's the next step to do except yourself. but whatever the choice, just do not think back and thought to yourself, AIYA, SHOULD NOT HAVE CHOSEN THIS!! things are never going to be perfect. it will never be. think beforce you act.